It wasn’t that long ago when the months of summer meant no work and all play for me. Things change so quickly after high school; life tends to sneak up on you, and the only way to deal is to keep moving forward.
I remember a time when we were young
We’d slip away from our radios just to have what we called fun
And dreams would fill our beds and make it past our heads
Yeah, things were better when we were young
But it’s what we do in this little thing called humanity
It’s what we do; we hurt the ones we love
It’s what we do; no one wins
Out of all my sins, you’re the one I always think of
I don’t know why; don’t ask me how
But I recall how small the weddings were in this town
A white dress was still in style, and the vows would last for a while
But I don’t even know what we have now
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I knew we’d break, even back then
You held my hand and I never saw you again
But that’s the way it tends to go with someone you barely know
So much for promises in the end
It’s interesting when two friends can start a relationship, end that relationship and still remain friends... even though some things will never be the same.
If I could, I'd be the one to hold you now
But she’s probably so in love with you
Remember that old pier that had to be taken out?
Well, take her there, I’m sure she’d love the view
Hey, boy... hey, boy
Hey there, boy, hey there, boy
What you crying for?
You said you never wanted to wait and now you’re waiting some more
Hey there, boy, look at me
‘Cause I can guarantee that I’ve spent more time crying on the floor
Those pictures we took never did you justice
I don’t know why I ever saved a few
Recently, I lose track of how late it gets
Wondering if you like the way she treats you
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Mistakes make us human. Awareness brings regret, a feeling that can help us learn from those mistakes. It’s then our duty to pass the message on to not only the people we love and care about but to those we may never come into contact with.
Midwest, empty road
Fields on the left and the right
She’s a saint, and he’s not
And coffee just burns out the mind
Euphoria sets in
A bittersweet kind of demise
He’s tired, but she’s wired
And thankfully rooms don’t have eyes
And everybody is telling her she’s just scared
Of tearing wings off of angels
And the feathers flying everywhere
Years pass, but they crawl
I’ve given up all that I can
Something else takes my name
I’ve forgotten whoever I am
And everybody is telling me I’m just scared
Of tearing wings off of angels
And the feathers flying everywhere
Trees grow, stars shine
But something else stands over you
Look to the inside
When you’re not sure what to do
Don’t let anybody tell you you’re just scared
Of tearing wings off of angels
You’ll carry that wing everywhere
Just a happy, little love song. :) The world needs more of those.
Baby, I
Baby, I
Really think you’re no good for me
So baby, why do I get lost in your eyes
When I’m trying to remember how to breathe?
It’s the reason I’ll never be torn away from you
Baby, we will always be together if we can
Find a way through the pain
Oh, so
Baby, take me, and run away
Come on, we’ve got nothing better to do
When want you want isn’t at all what you should have. This is a heartfelt apology, born from an important life lesson.
Have a seat, don’t turn around
I’d hate to see your sad, sad face right now
How many times have I whispered in your ear,
“Maybe someday yes, but no, not here, no”?
I should have stopped myself before I tried to start
But something blocked my body heat from reaching my heart
This is the way life has to be
It sucks, and it hurts, definitely
We’re desperate to find the place to breathe
One day, the world will surely spin
At the pace we’re comfortable in
I promise you’ll find the one who makes you forget
You and I ever met
You will, definitely
I was once an innocent
Never knew, never tried, never did much more than sing
Grew sick of everyone saying, “Yeah,
That girl will never know anything”
I’m sorry for all the confusion; my mind is a selfish mess
I should have bitten my tongue; I was too busy to hear my head
(Repeat Chorus)
Please don’t make this harder
The way you look right now is so unfair
And if you must remember
Know that it meant much more to me than I can share
(Repeat Chorus)
Real love never comes easily, but even the strongest relationships can shatter under the simplest of circumstances. We must learn how to withstand the breakage.
It won’t be long
I took a flight today and stared at the groundI
I took a flight today and stared at the ground
And there was a debt to pay for my running around
But I wouldn’t come down
I wouldn’t come down, I wouldn’t come down
All of your bitterness was washed out in time
But it found a brand new home, and that home was mine
And you didn’t mind
You didn’t mind, you didn’t mind
Every love that was can be found in a song
And it won’t be long until we learn to be strong
It won’t be long, it won't be long
It won’t be long, it won’t be long
A song I wrote shortly after graduation while still enduring the remnants of high school drama. It was fun to come up with a something following the lines of only cliché sayings, something very fitting for the days of drama.
Your eyes burned the brightest green I’d ever seen
No others compared
But you had this bad habit of closing them
When the truth was there
You make me cry when I see your life
You have no right; I’m just a passerby
You want to fall beneath the cracks
And worst of all, I can’t bring you back
You could make my knees weak with just one look
You always gave me butterflies
But you fell for the oldest trick in the book
And now you’re drowning in lies
You make me wonder
If you feel the thunder
So don’t apologize, if you’re wise
Hope you like the box you’ve put yourself in
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Inspired by the prologue of the book "Bran Hambric: The Farfield Curse" by Kaleb Nation. This is my idea of Emry’s last lullaby for her son, Bran. Guest musician John Kennedy Jr. of the group Kennedy’s Kitchen provided his talents to this track in Irish whistle and bouzouki. Thank you, John. :)
Come to me, my son, for I must leave you soon
Come to me, my baby, lu lay lu, lay lu
With my dying breath, I will keep you safe away
And we will meet, my baby, once again someday
Many had requested that this one be on my next full-length album, and I listened! :) The lyrics are fairly abstract, allowing for many interpretations, but my best description of the song is that it's about the basic feeling of loving someone you may not be able to fully trust. Whether that's good or bad for you can only be decided with time.
Hello and goodbye again, it’s nice to see you, too
The rain outside is quite the ride when I’m in it with you
Hold me close ‘cause Heaven knows that we don’t need no sleep
Kiss me dear, no one will hear ‘cause I won’t give a peep
Teach me how to see a world in destiny, hiding from the blue
Show me how to love with all I’m capable of
And that leaves me and you
Sing a song, and make it long, and then you start to breathe
Teach me how and we’ll find out exactly what we need
All our troubles, they will fall in bubbles
They will pop when they hit the sea
Haven’t you heard? Every story comes and goes
Everybody knows, everybody knows
(Repeat Chorus)
I've always dreamed of the possibility of life far away from the cold, fickle weather here in Indiana. When I was eight years old, my family took a vacation to the south, and for the first time, I visited Florida and swam in the Atlantic Ocean. I hope that one day, I can leave all of this behind, just for a little while, and let passion lead me to somewhere beautiful.
Oh, no, here we go, wasting all this time
Pretty soon, afternoon’ll waste itself to night
Somehow I find myself holding on to you
Thinking and wondering what you gonna do
Remember when I told you ‘bout the town where I grew up
Petty fights, socialites, and other stupid stuff?
Seemed our dreams would never once take flight
Set ‘em up, knock ‘em down, just to watch them try
Take me fast, or take me slow
‘Cause the world is yours tonight
Forget the past, ‘cause all I know is
When I’m with you I’ll be alright
I wanna go where the weather’s warm and kind
I’m so sick of Indiana wintertime
Take me to a place where I can clear my head
A place where I can see the ocean from the bed
(Repeat Chorus)
Waiting on the voices in my head to disappear
Leaving me alone with every one of my worst fears
All my life, I’ve kept them stored away inside
Never know when you might need to cry sometime
Using Biblical metaphors, this is a song about looking back on life during the final days of it and remembering those lost and those found.
Hush now, little one
You need your tears no more
When the stars will lead you
To where we were before
Run, run, little child
Run through all the trees
To the wide, wide ocean
Where we were once at peace
My, my old friend
Why have you gone astray
When the Dark Prince steals you
On his numbered day?
Lay down all vicious pride
Lay it on the ground
There the will be no enemy
We are the only sound
There, there, little one
You’ve come to see the day
When the good Lord has returned
To take us all away
Down from the mountainside
Where light has found no end
To the wide, wide ocean
Where we will live again
A song written over three years ago when I was still in high school. It is one I created with old thoughts of my childhood in mind—the days when I'd be eight years old, sitting on the swings in the park and almost believing that if I used as much energy as my little legs could muster, maybe I really COULD let go and fly right into the sky. (Never worked out that way.)
I wish I could fly away and be a bird
That’s never placed inside a cage
If I were in the sky, I’d be the only one heard
Whose song is written on page
I wish I were warm inside, somehow, some way
It’s cold out here today
If the sun were to stay down this dawn
As if it did not have a friend
I think I would feel like I was landing on
A gloomy poem with no end
I wish I could be home again, oh home again
I know not where my mind has been
You tell me hold on, hold on now
But you told me you’d never leave
I miss the way you were
If I wake up to something more than this, this dream
Maybe I will go outside again
I’ll walk to town and see the sights I’ve not yet seen
I leave my heart at home to mend
I’ll sing with grace to whatever Heaven brings
And my mended heart will sew my wings
This is a song filled with pain and the desperation one needs to go back to the start of his or her mistakes in order to at least attempt to make things right again.
Lay down your head and close your eyes
To the ground you’re led by every lie
And breathe in your hopelessness
And try to find your revery
Hold onto it; you only live once
Reign in all your faith and all your patience
And breathe in your helplessness
Here lies the road you need
And if you try to fly to away from here
You’ll begin to disappear
You can wish on the moon, burn your eyes on the sun
But you always knew this time would come
With the wind in your face and the devil in your head
Now move it along; pick up your feet
It’s a long way home on the open sea
Whatever you do, run just run
Till you know you’re there
The moon told you that you’d be gone
But the sun said it wouldn’t be for very long
I know you’re tired and you’ll feel weak
From all the sins you bear
But don’t kid yourself; you’re just a child
And it’s as healthy as a day in Hell to taste the wild
Have you not heard of the big, bad wolf?
He resides here in your worst nightmare
And you can try to fly away from here
You'll begin to disappear
(Repeat Chorus)
Another song that listeners had requested be on the album. :) As a fan of artists Loreena McKennitt, Connie Dover and Kate Rusby, I had wanted for a long time to write a Celtic tragic ballad of my own. I based the story in 15th-century France, during the days of Gilles Montmorency-Laval, baron de Rais, one of the most infamous serial killers of all time.
Way out in the forest fled the brave, young Lilian
Dismounting at the shelter of an unknown handsome man
“Please, Sir, I have ridden fifteen miles tonight
And I need a place to rest till the morning light
I haven’t much money, but I’ll work for thee”
“Tell me, maiden, what brought you to my stead?
Your clothes are all torn and there’s blood from your head”
“Two soldiers I have killed, for they murdered my sister
When I declared we’d not go to Baron Gilles’ home
And they hanged her from the tree in his courtyard”
“I have heard the many stories that tell the evil of that man
Fear not, my Lilian, they will never lay a hand
I’ll keep you here tonight, safe by my side
And you can rest till the morning light
I promise that his men will not see you”
Lilian was cold, and she awoke with a fright
The fire had burned out; it was just before light
She called for the man, but she could not find him
Had he left her for the Baron? She called once again
She ran outside, and still she heard no answer
A soldier who’d been waiting seized her from behind
And then twenty more emerged from the thin forest line
Then he said, “Poor, young Lilian, the Baron has missed you
And won’t he be glad when he sees who we have?”
Then he pushed her down and bound her hands and feet
The man returned from town, and he saw what had happened
And he ran to the house, a dagger in his hand
And he cut the soldier’s throat, set Lilian free
And he told her to run, so she ran through the trees
Then another soldier drew his sword and killed him
Faster, she did run with nowhere to hide
When she arrived at the ravine, Gilles’ men close behind
She looked one, last time at the men running toward her
And she threw herself in to avoid the Baron
And they crowded ‘round the edge where she invited death
I stood at the very river where Lilian had drowned
One year had passed since she’d gone down
When I turned to see a young girl, pale as white fleece
She wore tattered clothes, and she smiled at me
Then she disappeared with nothing but a whisper
A song created from the bluesier side of my mind. It's about taking charge of yourself when love has done nothing but put you in shackles.
Talk about an angel; New Orleans is where he’s from
With a soul for the river and a place for his gun
Moved on at eighteen to see what could be seen
Nothing but the great, wide nothing, and then he saw me
And he said, “I don’t believe in always
And all I need is a highway
If you want an always
Then let me be”
Tommy was a good man; never made a dime
He played in a blues band
And he was mine, mine
Till I said, “I don’t believe in always
And all I need is a highway
If you want an always
The let me be
I don’t believe in always
If you need an always
Then let me be
Let me be
Let me be
I don't believe in always
And if you need an always
Then let me be
Let me be
Let me be”
Love is an interesting thing, once you've come close to feeling it. I have a tendency to remain somewhat too logical when relationships are within grasp, but sometimes it's best to let all logic go and do what everyone may not expect you to.
Love has a time and a mind of its own
What are you waiting for?
And you care too much for a world you never see
Never touch, have never known before
Love’s like a fire you can never put out
It burns us until we grow old
Wishing a waiting, isn’t it nice
To always do as we’re told
We used to sleep in our chair by the fire
Not a light was on
And now all I see is a drive, empty
Where has the time gone?
Lay down, lay down on the floor again
I’ve been around a while, my friend
My friend, lay down again
Love’s like a fire you can never put out
It burns us until we grow old
Wishing and waiting, isn’t it nice
To never do as we’re told?
Your hopes and your dreams, I’ll keep them right here
Safe as I possibly can
As long as you promise that you’ll be back home
To take them and use them again
A song for Gabe Merrill. I hope can hear this from where he now lives.
Gabriel, the churchyard seems so cold
Oh, Gabriel
I hardly feel the rain, even though it’s left a heavy stain, Gabriel
I think sometimes you’re the lucky one
A thought that haunts me now
How can I live when I don’t know how?
It’s been five years, and I still can see the look on your face
Oh, Gabriel, there must be some mistake
When the churchyard begins to sing
You know, it’s all for you I hope you’re listening
Oh, Gabriel, don’t forget your wings
Gabriel, if you’d only let go of your wings
Then maybe you’d be here with me
We all need a vacation from ourselves now and then, and it's always nice to be able to share it someone else.
Hold my head, just a little while
Just a little longer than forever
Don't you know? I won't be here tomorrow
And the silence means more than we could ever say
We could fly above the mountains
And soar through the sky to the sea; don't ask why
Just fly with me
We could fly above the mountains
And soar through the sky to the sea, in the night
You and me
Soar through the sky, to the sea, don't ask why
Just fly with me

